It’s finished, it’s finished! It seemed posting excerpts from my book, Ragdoll Redeemed: Growing up in the Shadow of Marilyn Monroe would never end. My reason for blogging these excerpt’s was to bide time to decide if I wanted to continue writing. Despite the fact that I have two published books I do not consider myself a writer and since writing is quite difficult for me it is not a task that I take pleasure in or am remain committed.
On the other hand, I am totally committed to the initial purpose of my blog which was an opportunity to talk about the many faces we live. I ended my book (last blog) by referring too many of my personal parts/faces.
“No matter how many faces life has sewn upon the ragamuffin I am, they are all still only aspects of the self that I have become. Just as I used to assign personas and roles to rag dolls in the hours of make-believe, so life has assigned me many roles: bastard child, daughter, granddaughter, half- sister, white trash, ward of the state, foster child, retard, good girl/bad girl, whore, wife, ex-wife, stewardess, mother, step-mother, grandmother, student, graduate, citizen, alcoholic, victim, perpetrator, professional woman, psychotherapist, adjunct professor, friend, colleague, cancer survivor, cancer-thriver, wise woman, and crone. Even so, even now, when I have moments that I feel gnarled and broken, unraveled and undone, I can still sit before my own prayer table and imagine the soothing touch of my grandmother’s hands sewing me back together again. Now that I am old like the Mary statue, my essential self far exceeds the masks that I have worn.”
I’m inspired by colleagues like Dr. Richard Schwartz who works to bring peace by teaching (and practicing) varies models of self-awareness all over the world.Having recently returned from a conference in Iceland, “…called the Spirit of Humanity Forum.”We were among 230 people from 40 countries who gathered for three days to discuss how to bring more compassion and love to governance. “Thus, we heard stories of people from all over the world who had created international peace programs, worked on environmental legislation, engaged in conflict resolution, or otherwise contributed in myriad ways to the vision of a more compassionate world.”
I believe that self-awareness can reduce our individual and collective fears and projections thereby contributing to the overall process of world compassion. Believing that we are all connected energetically, if I can contribute to the process of peace, one individual at a time, by helping people to bring awareness to their internal world (parts/roles) I will have accomplished something in my lifetime. Remember the song, Let there be peace on Earth and let it begin with me. I’m most defiantly a work in progress. I hope you will read my blogs as I endeavor to share what I’ve learned relative to the faces we live.